It has been two years since I’ve posted!? 
I left off when our daughter Caroline Esther was born…. Since then our seventh daughter has joined our family, Italia Arden.
So much in our life has changed… and still so much is the same…. We continue down this “hall of faith”… our family walking in God’s footsteps… sometimes running, sometimes crawling, sometimes being carried….. This past year has been a year of being carried for our family…..
I hesitate to share my heart, to be completely transparent to the public, but I feel God is calling me out of the comfort zone of my heart…. there is a message God wants me to share in the journey, in the pain, in the strength, in the healing that He has carried us through this past year, and in EXPOSING OUR ENEMY.  I also believe He has more healing for me as I share our story and healing for someone else who may have walked some of the same ugly road we have been walking.
I am even changing this from a protected site to public.

Six months ago our seventh daughter was born…. she was born in the midst of an ugly raging storm in our marriage (so ugly I elected to have a C-section… and if you knew me well you would understand how destroyed I was at the time, because I have had all my girls at home and never would have dreamed of having birth at a hospital let alone a Csection, but it was an answer to pray at the time and God gave me peace in that decision for whatever reason (my husband fasted for 10 days seeking God’s answers for my heart at the time and we were amazed to watch God answer every single one… He carried me through those moments….)
We named our daughter Italia because it means STRONG TOWER….. God has been our STRONG TOWER this past year…. Arden means VALLEY OF THE EAGLE; A ROMANTIC PLACE OF REST… (Arden is also my father name).  We will soar like an eagle even in the valleys of life…. God will raise us up and place us on a romantic place of rest…. our marriage has been through the fire, but God will restore and we are finding that we are entering that “romantic place of rest” in our marriage as well as in our love relationship with God. People keep asking me if we watched “Fire Proof” yet… nope…. and I finally explained to someone this past week that someday I might watch it but that movie has been our lives this past year… I don’t emotionally want to watch pain that I have felt so intensly myself over certain similiar issues… enough pain that I litterly didn’t want to live anymore… When the “darkness closess in all around”, I know that feeling all to well, but God IS there in every kind of darkness!
Too be continued…..